What up? I have to start this off by thanking every human being that cast a vote for me at the Underground Music Awards. If you haven't heard by now, one week ago I took home the Best Lyricist Award and I have to say it still feels pretty good. I mean a little more than good because I promised myself I would celebrate every accomplishment no matter how major or minor it may seem at the time.
This is my first award as a soloist and I was nominated like every year so it’s been a long time coming for the kid. I have to thank Mister Fame for pushing me, holding me down and keeping me in the public eye. I would like to thank my publicist Stephanie Carnegie for going extra hard for me and keeping my spirits up. I gotta shout out Brandi for putting up the lyrics on myspace to let people know I really do say some shit. Sunny Redd and Flash were in BB Kings to hold me down on stage at the award show and MTV mentioned our Hometown Heroes mixtape on their Mixtape Mondays section. I can't say I didn't expect to win one of the awards I was up for but actually hearing my name called as the winner made me feel like I accomplished something this year so yea I'm running with it, might mention it in a freestyle or 2, maybe on Mtv2 or something since they called me to do another suckafree joint. Look out for that! We celebrated at Negril's last Thursday along with Esso who won for best mixtape. We had a real good turnout and I have to congratulate the other winners Lydia Caesar, Harlem, Jae Millz, Big Lou, Grafh and Joell Ortiz(still waiting on that ball game) to name a few.
Aight imma stop with thee award talk but like I said, being given something for putting words together in a time where they say lyricism is dead is a big deal to me. A day after I got the award I attended the wake for a friend of mine I grew up in the hood with Ms. Brandi McNutt. It’s always tough to see a young person leave prematurely, especially a mother of 3. I'd like to tell her family stay strong. Wakes get me down but somehow move me and remind me that no matter what I'm dealing with it could be worse. Ironically I was in the studio a few days after that and the engineer handed me a copy of X1's mixtape. X1 was Sticky Fingaz little "brother" and an acquaintance of mine through music that took his own life this summer in Vegas. I wonder what would make things get that bad that you would want to end it all and actually go through with it. Some people say the best emcees have an obsession with death and always speak on it and actually prophesize their own in their music. Whether it is "Ready to die" or "How Long Will They Mourn Me?" there may be some truth to that statement, however I feel like it could be the passion for life that drives artists to rap about passing on and their fear of it. I think Pac was in the studio so much because he felt it could happen at anytime. I think Biggie knew people wanted him gone and I believe Fifty is trying to dodge that same fate. I mention the end in my music because at one time it used to fuel me to know that if I leave here I have material that lives on. Its sort of like music makes me immortal.
Some people say hip-hop is dead so I'm finishing up a new CD called "The Séance" which should be available in 2 weeks along with the "Best of Me". And since a lot of rappers out here don't know that they're dead I'm dropping a digital EP called "The Sixth Sense." There goes that obsession again but anyway, keep your ears open...and your eyes too I just went out for the lead role in this film called "Gotta Get Mine" last week as well. The director was feeling me so I'll keep y'all posted with how the casting turns out. I'm not sure when my interview with DJ Bedtyme 357 and his lovely co-host on his hatemoney radio show airs but you can youtube the video footage of the whole show.
It's real talk for a few minutes about my whole record deal situation and my next moves. I always feel the need to let the public know what happened to me can happen to anyone. I'll elaborate more next time but all I can say is if you are trying to break into this business please study it and knowwhat you want out of it. I'm gone.
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